people have always been the most important thing in my life.
dont get me wrong, they are still very important to me...but ive come to a new place of understanding on what that means. a new awareness of being.
i now realize that they are a gift from my God who knew it wasnt good for us to be alone.
you see when you take a compassion and love for people that God gives you and use it for your own comfort and survival things get bad. really bad.
they become idols. food. air. comfort to an extreme. and no one can live up to the standard of being air for someone. except all the while i was believing i could do it so why cant they?
interesting that i thought i could do God's job better when i had no food keeping me alive myself.
the declaration that "He is my portion" has become tattooed on my heart.
When the sun sets over the mountains, i always feel a tad bit of sadness to see the light go.
at this time i am most vulnerable to a lost feeling of comfort and the heaviness of loneliness.
all i want is a physical being to be my savior and pull me up back into the sun.
But now i see that His light has overcome the darkness. He comes closer in my moment of loneliness than any human ever could. He comforts me like i never imagined possible.
As i have begun to rely on only drinking from the "spring of living water", i am overwhelmed at the abundant blessing of truly loving people God has provided. Sometimes i forget He knows me better than i know myself...
He is my portion.
"so, also through Christ our comfort overflows." 2 corinthians 1:5b